Saturday, March 6, 2010

11:00 am

I am still buzzing with all of the excitement of today.  It was everything I ever could have hoped for, and more.

All the paperwork has been signed.....ahhh......A huge sigh of relief.

As we were sitting in the office today going over our paperwork, I couldn't help but think what was going on over at the courthouse.  Would "B" change her mind at the last minute?  I am famous for waiting until the last possible second to make an important decision, or change my mind about something I had already accepted.  So, if I knew myself of being capable of last minute surprises, other people could do the same. Could she?  Would she?  I was a complete wreck. It was about 11:20 when there was a knock on the door to the conference room.  A woman popped her head in and told us that, "They just called from court, are finished, and on their way.  They will be here shortly."  And that was it.  I broke.  I could not help but cry.  Those were the words I had been waiting to hear.

 I regained my composure, and held back tears until we left the room and met "B" in another, more intimate, comfortable room.  Again, I broke.  I don't know how long I held her, as I cried again, but I didn't want to let go.  Here she was....a sweet kind, gentle person who wants nothing but love for her little girl.

We went out to lunch along with the social worker, and had a beautiful day together.  "B" is so much more than I thought she would be.  I love her.  Not the "thank you" type of love, but the love of a close family member.  She will always be a part of me, and a part of Olivia.

When we started this adoption process, I was scared.  My husband was scared.  But as we learned more about it, the more comfortable and excited we became.  Now, it has completely changed our lives.  Not because we have a little one, but it has change us...who we are.  We have a better understanding of life, what is important, our faith was strong before, but now it can move mountains.  Our adoption is a miracle, and everyone we have met along the way is an angel.  We are blessed....

Introducing our daughter, Olivia....



4 comments:

Cadie said...

She is beautiful!! Congratulations, Mom and Dad!! God is good! :)

MoserUpdates said...

She is absolutely beautiful! I am so excited for you, Momma! Enjoy, enjoy, enjoy :)

Jodi said...

Your daughter is beautiful!!! I'm so happy for you! Congratulations, and I'll be keeping B in my thoughts and prayers! :)

J said...

Olivia is perfect, so beautiful! Congratulations Mama!

Do you have an open or closed adoption?